I won't be going into much detail about last Wednesday.
But it will be a day I will never forget.
Our little foster peanut had a visit with her grandma and birth mother.
They haven't seen her since her birth.
There's not a part of my brain that understands that.
But what I do know is that we live in a broken world.
What I also know is when we spoke up for the orphan,
We knew it would not be simple.
When we chose to stand up for the fatherless,
There would be pain.
But He set the example.
He saw our brokenness and how ugly we were covered in our sin,
And He still chose to love us.
He saw how we would fail Him,
And He still pursued us.
I sat knee to knee with a broken momma that day for two hours.
Every part of ME wanted to go the other way.
But I committed to Him as I walked down that hall,
That this meeting was NOT about me.
He had to take over every part of my selfish nature and take over.
I could not have done this with out Him!
But who am I?
Am I better than her?
Am I worth more than her?
Did He do more for me than He did for her?
Her pain was real.
He knew her pain.
He is right there, waiting for her to let Him in.
He gave His Son's life for HER!
He knew what He was getting in to.
His pursuit of our adoption was painful.
But He knew what He was getting in to.
1 John 4:9-10
"God showed us how much He us by sending His one and only son
into the world so that we might have eternal life through Him.
This is real love ~ not that we loved God,
but that He loved us and sent His son as a sacrifice to take away our sins."
I recently was encouraged by this song.
As a adopting and fostering momma,
I'm seeing what we are getting into,
and we are doing it because of everything He did for us!
Check out this song, read these lyrics....think of HIM and His crazy love for you!
I Knew What I Was Getting Into ~ Misty Edwards
I knew what I was getting into when I called you
I knew what I was getting into whenI said your name,
but I said it just the same
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you
I knew what I was getting into and I still chose you
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you
And I am not shocked by your weakness
And I am not shocked even by your sin
And I am not shocked by your brokenness
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you
I knew what I was getting into and I still chose you
Cause only I can see the end from the beginning
And only I can see where this is going
And I see in you the seeds of love
And I see in you strength when all you see is your failure
and all you feel is ashamed
I can see deeper than that
I know you better than that
I knew what I was getting into when I called you
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you
I knew what I was getting into and I still chose you
You are only at the beginning
You've only just begun and I know where you are going
And all you can see in the moment is that you are hurting
And all you see in the moment is that you are aching
I knew what I was getting into when I called you
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you
Just don't give up
And don't give in
If you don't quit, you win. You win.
Everything is in my hands
It's going to be alright
And you don't have to pretend to be something or someone you are not
Cause I know you better than that, even better than that
Listen my Beloved...
I knew what I was getting into...
You can listen to this beautiful song here
